so i haven't updated to much lol i have been slacking on a lot of stuff lately not to much going on spend lots of time with my kids and what not... trying to get up energy to start going back to the gym... then new apprenticeship is ok... a little stress-full at times... i think the worst is working there after i get out of my other job... until 11pm and then getting home at like 12am then getting up at 6am to go to work... but im doing it >.> i have be drawing A LOT! but all the stuff i have been doing they are not letting me bring home from the tattoo shop.. cuz they don't want are flash to end up in other peoples hands... witch make since... also be working with my tattoo guns on stupid things... just doodling around with them and what not... other then that not to much to talk about lol ..pretty dull right now ...

i really hate my 2 best friends.. witch leaves me with no real friends the people i thought i could trust with every thing my only real friend now is my boy friend <3 Roy hes awesome... and i need to replace the 2 ass holes that have done nothing but shit on me and make me fell like ass for the last year... cuz there to good for me.... and a lot of people did not come to my party last night blah LOSERS!

the first one... a boy... fixes things... always said i used him blah blah blah promised me he wouldn't stop being my friend this time when he gets a new gf.... EVERY time he gets a gf he don't want nothing to do with me.... what ever im just a made up bed room story to him i guess.... and the girl hes with now... i keep hearing things.... and i KNOW! if they are true! she is going to rip him apart... and use the fuck out of him and drain EVERY BIT OF THE REAL MAN I KNEW! what ever maby he needs that.... blah so anyway he is no longer a friend.... he is now on the other "friend" list.... it took a lot to get him off the friend list... but now that's were he is!

2and one.... is a girl.... she always finds some way to get away from me and push me off.... she always wants to "hang out" when its convenient for her ass... she was sooo cool in school... we always did shit together she was a lot like me we could go out and goof off and have so much fun shopping and just being girls together..... now recently she finished school and what not gets a real job and becomes some CRAZY STUCK UP PREP GIRL! and sleeps around... and just not the person i knew.... she says she wants to see me then the next shes like yeah... making up story... and let me tell you this girl can make up a story! we went to Florida together i was giving her 1 free trip! all she had to do was drive her car to the airport THAT'S IT! she makes up the story the day of the trip... my car rolled into the SWAMP! fucking lair... nothing happened to your car... (there are a lot more shity story's)..then THE DAY OF MY PARTY SHES LIKE yeah my dad(who lives in another state) just magically showed up.... what EVER... no longer bff that's what i say

soo moral of my rant is friend SUCK! and i have no BFF now... and i need to find good replacements.... im not the best bff though... you need to call me cuz i don't think i know how to call people sometimes..... unless im mad at you... and want to hang out with me and be silly and fun any ways screw people who suck... that's what im saying ... peace...

soo i went to another tattoo shop today like i said and just say hell maby i should start all over... well the thing is i got in the shop! buuut now i have to stat the aprintis thing alllll over! witch sucks BADLY! but if i ever want to be the artiest let alone tattoo artist i desperately want and need to be to be truly happy i think i might have to do this... im going there tomorrow to start from dirt... in hopes to move back up the thing is there are really on 2 well known shops wear i live... and this is 2and... so it kan only get better right?

soo im super hell-a Bord right now... took out all the Halloween shit from basement getting ready for my Halloween party and i decided i need to start drawing again cuz... no mater what happens with my tattooing career i WILL always draw ^.^ and i don't care what any one says in REAL LIFE or the inter web im a DAMN GOOD fucking artist! sooooo what if i don't clean up every thing i post on this damn site! half of the shit is just junk i hop to clean up some day but never will! so fuck all the HATERS! annnnd umm... yeah... WOOOT HALLOWEEN!

im being a sugar skull lady this year....

G-sush out yo!

i decided to leave monkey becuz its was to stress full and made me fell like tattooing was stupid and a waste of time and $$ but now heres my deli-ma... do i go back to inkz inc... or do i got out and try to start all over? i dont want to start all over... but i might have to... my friend talked to another shop for me a good shop a decent shop and after a few drunken hours of talking about me they agreed to look at my portfolio... or do i just shut up and take it at inkz? i don't want the guys to be super pissed at me for coming and going.... and this other shop said to my friend that if i go that i kan not ever say the word inkz in there shop or i will be out... who knows... i think ill just let my friend take my portfolio out with her when she gos out to darts next Thursday... idk inkz loves me and likes hanging out with me and i kan do what i want there... only thing is.... im not learning much there ....